In the Midst of Helplessness and Depression

I’m going to get personal with you for a minute. Please know that I don’t often share this side of me, however the more I talk with women across the world and in all walks of life I realize that we are all the same. For nearly six years now I have suffered from severe depression. It first started when I sustained a neck injury, which required intensive surgery.

The pain was nonstop and excruciating. At the time, I didn’t have health insurance so I prolonged going to the doctor, which made matters worse. It came to a point that I could no longer lift my head off of my shoulder, nor move my left arm.

What made matters worse was, I was the main income earner in my family so not being able to work jolted my confidence and pride. For the first time in years I had to say no to my kids when it came to money. I was in a panic over finances and in severe pain 100% of the time. Here was this strong-willed woman, who stopped for nothing, now not even able to dress herself. It was pitiful!

Later that year I underwent extensive surgery and started feeling better. By no means was I able to do nearly the things that I had done before, but I was working myself up to the point of being able to better care for my family. And that’s when I got the proverbial boot to the gut…

He’s got cancer and at best 18 months to live, said the doctor, about my darling husband. WHAT?? How could this be happening? What am I going to do? We have a family with young kids, and a house, and I need him, and what am I going to do?

At that point, I fell into a deep dark pit of depression to the point that I didn’t know if I would come out of. It was definitely a low point in my life. To this day I still struggle with depression, some days better/worse than the next. It’s a constant struggle for me; and, for many, many, many women across the world.

In Psalms 143, David prays out to God to rescue him. In verses 7-8, David says “Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens; don’t turn away from me or I shall die. Let me see your kindness to me in the morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for my prayer is sincere.”

In these passages, David was losing hope, caught up in a deep depression that was paralyzing him with fear. At times, we feel caught in depression that deepens and we are unable to pull ourselves out. During those times, we can go to the Lord, just like David, and express our true feelings, which is sometimes hard to do to family members and friends.

When we reach out to God in the midst of our hurt, loneliness, sadness, and depression, that’s when He can reach down from heaven and fill us up with His unconditional love and comfort.

No matter what you’re going through today, please know that I’m praying for you. I’d love to hear from you. Please leave your comment below or join us over on our Facebook page at http://facebook.com/DivasThat Pray

And remember, you were created for excellence by excellence, which makes YOU pretty special!!

Until next time, Be Blessed!